| | Thought of the day: "Finally the hills are without eyes. They are tired of painting a dead man's face red with their own blood.. They used to love having so much to lose. Blink your eyes just once and see everything in ruin..."
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Listening To: "Doubt & Trust" by Access
Mood: Creative
Writing: Drawing fanart
Reading: D.Gray-Man Manga
Watching: AMVs
Health Status: Sore jaw from dental appointments ..boourns.
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I don't think I've been more happy in a long time. No I don't have a new vehicle or a job yet and I didn't come into a large sum of money or anything. I've got my drawing ability back thanks to D.Gray-man and my love of Tyki Mikk. I've been sketching here and there and doing a lot of things and they're all turning out to my satisfaction which takes a lot. I haven't drawn a guy in awhile but I drew Tyki Mikk last night for the first time and he turned out fabulous! I LOVE IT!
Yeah D.Gray-man is a morbid anime/manga series and I am absolutely addicted to it. With so much gore, and agony, and bishies, it is way too addictive to be ignored. If you watch it you'll understand why I love Tyki Mikk so much and if you've read the Manga, you should love Winters Sokaro..the General. xD Maybe I just like Sadists I do not know.
Other than being consumed by anime and artwork I've been cleaning and job-hunting but still having no success and I am kind of giving up hope. I've gone to two agencies with no results and I've applied nearly everywhere around here and even places that are a half hour drive away. It's getting really irritating because people tell me to keep trying so I do but it just feels like its worthless. They didn't call a couple monthes ago than why would they call now? Desperation at jobs seems to even bypass me because they're so desperate and so am I yet no one calls. It's kind of depressing and sickening actually that I'm made to feel this worthless by people.
I'm also kind of infuriated with a few of my friends because of events that occurred last week at a friend's birthday celebration. It seems everyone but a select few individuals decided to embrace the opportunity of doing Cocaine. Now I love my friends; don't get me wrong, I just LOATHE that drug so much that I can't stand being around it or seeing people do it. Now everyone knows that I know they all do it so they assumed it was okay to do so in front of me. Well at this I was not at all pleased. I felt totally disgusted by it and on several occasions I actually sneered at it coldly. Then a few people got drunk and started talking nonsense only adding to my irritation. It got so bad I ended up choking one of my friend's with my hand and the only reason I let go was because TJ stepped in and told me to stop. I had completely went from calm to seeing red in that split second. I apologized to him naturally later on but told him I wouldn't be responsible for my actions any further if he continued to bother me. Apparently some comments flew around about me and how someone wants to "plow" me or whatever and it wasn't said in front of me but I really DO NOT care and still don't yet it seemed to be a big deal to other people. I was planning on having a good time but only ended up drinking about 3 shots through around a 6 hour span which for me is horrendous. I had bits and pieces of fun here and there but overall ended up leaving before 3am utterly infuriated with the acts that ensued. My friend Kirstin also didn't find it too fun and left within about a half hour of being there.
Well let's stop that rant there, I was angry, let's leave it at that. I ended up anxious and shaky so I knew I had to go.
Bf's birthday is coming up soon and I have no clue as to what to get him considering I am poor. *thinking* Maybe I'll MAKE something..yay macaroni art! Just kidding.
Not much else to update on, ask if you want..*shrug*
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