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Name: Lady De Wintre
Country: Canada
State: Ontario
Birthday: 8/20/1988
Gender: Female


Interests: Philosophy, Writing & Reading, Poetry, Mythology, Literature, Romance, Fetishes & Bondage, Dance, Song, Theatre, The Arts, Drawing & Sketching, Religions, Research, Intellectual Conversations, RPing, Designing, Tattoos & Piercings, ect...
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Currently Listening
What Hurts the Most
By Cascada
What Hurts The Most
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I'll find you.. somewhere...

Thought of the day: "So I've been trying to teach you something but you turn away..."


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Listening To: "What Hurts The Most" - Cascada
Mood: Irritated
Watching: D.Gray-Man
Reading: Forum Posts
Writing: Replies
Health Status: Teeth get taken out Tuesday..e_e
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"Hasn't been screaming all these years
Just to see the world crashing around me
Maybe this life is overrated
But I won't let the world burn around me" - "Denied" by Sonic Syndicate

Just some random lyrics that shake me to the core. I seen the above band with Nightwish recently in London and it completely enveloped me. It was the best day of my life so far. Not only did I get to see my favourite band live, but I was also happy enough to get a guitar pick, several pictures and a video, and shake all their hands which made me cry, honestly, I was in tears from oh so much joy.

Recently I've been bouncing between jobs, getting screwed over here and there by employers and then having THEM blame me for it. I asked for shifts, called, and get knocked off the schedule or some other stupid excuse so I'm looking, living pay-cheque to pay-cheque is really starting to hurt and make me exhausted. I'm having some weight management trouble due to stress, gaining and losing at tremendous speeds which aren't normal. Got a new family doctor who is a dermotologist so she's not completely there on some things like my Anxiety and what-not which is really annoying; especially considering she's got a bit of a bad attitude that I can't tolerate well.

Lots of stress, friends breaking up with their girlfriend/boyfriend, doing some bad shit, hanging out with the wrong people, so they're getting on my nerves. I need a good, long, WARM vacation. I went away camping for the weekend and had drama bombard me the Saturday I was there. One of my 'friends' broke up with his gf, she showed, they both gave me a headache, I told them to take it elsewhere, drugs flailed about, things went wrong; he left a mess, I was NOT pleased. I mean seriously I was looking to drink and get rid of stress and it stalked me all the way there. Our trailer is fucked up right now, a hole went through it, I got into an enormous fight with an ex-boss because he decided to send me a letter telling me I'm an embarrassment to myself, which he has no right to say considering he can't spell, or use punctuation, let alone SPEAK to people in a friendly manner. I know I'm stressing because my acne is going absolutely berserk on me; my stomach hurts ALL the time and I really just need a stable job, stable income, and stable friends.

On the plus side, I'm going to see the new Indiana Jones movie tomorrow with a friend, Harrison Ford = purrr..xD so I'm excited for that so long as plans go through.

My wisdom teeth come out on Tuesday and I'm not looking forward to the agony, the being waded on hand and foot for a week is intriguing but the pain is certainly a down-side.

I'm looking for work pretty much anywhere in my general area, even if I have to drive a half hour to get there and that may be better since no one here seems to want me as a worker despite how much of my ass I work off, might explain why I don't have an ass, *thinks*.

Anyways that's about it for an update,

Ciao

-- Lady De Wintre --


Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Currently Listening
Riot!
By Paramore
Misery Business
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I was just sippin' on somethin' sweet. I don't need political process...

Thought of the day: "Kick the can, kick the can, skip and blackjack. Steal a car and ring-a-round rosey. Rock n' roll, Candyland, Boogeyman. Run away and give me your sneakers..."


Listening To: "What Do You Think About That?" - Montgomery Gentry
Mood: Irritable and stressed.
Watching: Naruto Shippuden Episode 53 and 54 Subbed!
Reading: DGMA Posts.
Writing: Camping list
Health Status: Stressed and unwell; lack of sleep ish bad.

So A LOT has happened since the last time I updated. I know..my lazy piece of ass should've done this earlier but you know.. DGMA and DGM have consumed my life and they are more important than j00.

So I've been doing a lot of things lately other than letting anime consume me. I have been working; I started a new job which gave me some good part-time hours and it was decent work for decent pay. Well after my first week of being there they decided to hire someone on who was "more experienced" than me (this is kitchen work you pervs) and gave me the boot. They offered me a Serving position but then NEVER called me back. I called and e-mailed several times and received no messages or returned calls so they dropped me. So now I am looking for work again and once more it is proving to be a challenge. It's got me quite upset and discouraged and I feel like giving up but I know I can't.

I went and did my income tax work recently and was happy to find out I was receiving a decent return of money back from taxes and what not then find out my boyfriend wants to claim me as a "dependent" on his taxes and that I might have to re-do my taxes. Well I went and called and got info and I need not do anything to mine because I will get audited and screwed out of money. So we got into an ENORMOUS fight since his tax guy said what I did was illegal and blah blah blah he is a douche bag but now things seem to be resolved. However I am still quite iffy on the matter and pissed that money made us fight so bad for these past couple weeks.

My health condition: Well for the past week, week and a half maybe, I've had laryngitis. My voice will come and go quite badly and my throat is often left feeling swollen and dry at the end of the day no matter how much water I drink or how much I try to stop myself from speaking. It gets so bad at points my voice has crackled and I have gone without it for an entire day before. I am coughing a lot and constantly drinking water or juice to try and saturate my throat enough to stop feeling so dried out and sore. I've also got a mild cold and the starting of an ear infection due to these complications so I am not very well. I feel dizzy, feverish, and sick a LOT. I ALSO went in recently to get a consultation about my wisdom teeth being removed. They are to be removed the end of May and I am to be put to sleep for the operation. I will be sick for likely around a week or so and I KNOW I won't be a nice and tired sick.. I will be a throwing up, near dying sick.

Summer plans: As far as I know we are still heading out to the beach for the May long weekend but we shall see if expenses allow it. In August I am gone to Fan Expo and cosplaying as...LULUBELL! She is a character (not too popular) from the D.Gray-Man Manga/Anime series. I'll be roasting my arse off that's for sure. My sister and her friend are going as D.Gray-Man's Twin Noahs... Jasdero and Debito..or Jasdebi!

RPing: Well I stopped RPing on VF recently because I got busy and people decided to tell me I was god-moding...ME...god-moding. I have been rping for well over 8 years and the n00bs decide I am being a jerk. The creator had a whole plot planned out and I didn't go along with it all the time because that isn't how RPs should go.. it isn't an MMORPG or GAME..it's something to allow people creative expression. *twitch* So I totally snapped and withdrew ALL my characters from ALL roleplays until further notice so they can realize how much they need me. Fucking ridiculous people, I swear; so unappreciative.

Kitties: My cats went in last week to get declawed and neutered so now they are recovering. We've gotta keep them limited from movement until Saturday. And they can't use proper litter so we use torn up newspaper and MAN is it annoying. I have to change the box every day because it stinks so bad! ugh.. and they need to stay in the cage which is a large dog catch, I'm not mean, so they don't cut open their wounds or anything while I'm not home. They seem to be recovering VERY well but it's still a bit annoying having to do so much maintenance on them right now. At least they won't be ripping up furniture anymore, or clawing at me, or spraying urine everywhere! yay!?!?

I'm happy the weather is getting brighter and better and warmer despite it only being April. It is a nice relief from all the massive and random snow storms piling 4 feet of snow onto my car. I cleaned my car too and it looks snazzy on the inside, not so much the inside..stupid melting snow and mud..bleh! I have BARELY been sleeping lately from all the stress and I am so exhausted so THIS is the end of my update for now..xD

Lady De Wintre


Thursday, March 13, 2008

Currently Listening
D.Gray-Man V.1
By Japanimation
Doubt & Trust by Access
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Worry not for I am.. AWESOME! xD

Thought of the day: "Finally the hills are without eyes. They are tired of painting a dead man's face red with their own blood.. They used to love having so much to lose. Blink your eyes just once and see everything in ruin..."

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Listening To: "Doubt & Trust" by Access
Mood: Creative
Writing: Drawing fanart
Reading: D.Gray-Man Manga
Watching: AMVs
Health Status: Sore jaw from dental appointments ..boourns.
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I don't think I've been more happy in a long time. No I don't have a new vehicle or a job yet and I didn't come into a large sum of money or anything. I've got my drawing ability back thanks to D.Gray-man and my love of Tyki Mikk. I've been sketching here and there and doing a lot of things and they're all turning out to my satisfaction which takes a lot. I haven't drawn a guy in awhile but I drew Tyki Mikk last night for the first time and he turned out fabulous! I LOVE IT!

Yeah D.Gray-man is a morbid anime/manga series and I am absolutely addicted to it. With so much gore, and agony, and bishies, it is way too addictive to be ignored. If you watch it you'll understand why I love Tyki Mikk so much and if you've read the Manga, you should love Winters Sokaro..the General. xD Maybe I just like Sadists I do not know.

Other than being consumed by anime and artwork I've been cleaning and job-hunting but still having no success and I am kind of giving up hope. I've gone to two agencies with no results and I've applied nearly everywhere around here and even places that are a half hour drive away. It's getting really irritating because people tell me to keep trying so I do but it just feels like its worthless. They didn't call a couple monthes ago than why would they call now? Desperation at jobs seems to even bypass me because they're so desperate and so am I yet no one calls. It's kind of depressing and sickening actually that I'm made to feel this worthless by people.

I'm also kind of infuriated with a few of my friends because of events that occurred last week at a friend's birthday celebration. It seems everyone but a select few individuals decided to embrace the opportunity of doing Cocaine. Now I love my friends; don't get me wrong, I just LOATHE that drug so much that I can't stand being around it or seeing people do it. Now everyone knows that I know they all do it so they assumed it was okay to do so in front of me. Well at this I was not at all pleased. I felt totally disgusted by it and on several occasions I actually sneered at it coldly. Then a few people got drunk and started talking nonsense only adding to my irritation. It got so bad I ended up choking one of my friend's with my hand and the only reason I let go was because TJ stepped in and told me to stop. I had completely went from calm to seeing red in that split second. I apologized to him naturally later on but told him I wouldn't be responsible for my actions any further if he continued to bother me. Apparently some comments flew around about me and how someone wants to "plow" me or whatever and it wasn't said in front of me but I really DO NOT care and still don't yet it seemed to be a big deal to other people. I was planning on having a good time but only ended up drinking about 3 shots through around a 6 hour span which for me is horrendous. I had bits and pieces of fun here and there but overall ended up leaving before 3am utterly infuriated with the acts that ensued. My friend Kirstin also didn't find it too fun and left within about a half hour of being there.

Well let's stop that rant there, I was angry, let's leave it at that. I ended up anxious and shaky so I knew I had to go.

Bf's birthday is coming up soon and I have no clue as to what to get him considering I am poor. *thinking* Maybe I'll MAKE something..yay macaroni art! Just kidding.

Not much else to update on, ask if you want..*shrug*

<< Lady De Wintre >>


Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Don't feel like Satan but I am to them.. So I try to forget it any way I can...

Thought of the day: "Bring your IQ and try to understand just cause I'm listening; don't mean we're still friends. Can't fix my problem; you crossed a thin line. You can't just work it out; not with me this time..."


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Listening To:
"The Bird and the Worm" - The Used
Mood: Renewed, ready to begin a new.
Writing: Thoughts
Watching: Shaman King
Reading: Thoughts
Health Status: Disgusting..sick, sleepless, restless, vengeful.
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So I'm ready to forgive and forget. I want things to start over and to be reborn. I'm ready to move away from the past and let things go as long as he is willing to change and stop what he's been doing. I don't want anyone to get hurt; they can keep doing what they do but must be aware that Tj and I will have no part of it and that if they try to get in the way; I will step over and on anyone with an intention to hurt and destroy to keep things in balance.

It's hard to quit something really strong just cold turkey but I'm not giving a choice here; I am against this too strongly to let it slide. It killed a close friend of mine and since then I've deemed it to be nothing more than evil in a pure form. It changes people for the worst and it nearly destroyed our relationship. We used to be awesome together; go everywhere and do everything together and then we became distant and he got frustrated so easy and I got stressed because he was always staying up WAY too late. I couldn't bare it anymore and it needed to be done; me or that shit.

I've never been so stressed or sick in my life. For the past week and a half I've been restless; sleeping hardly ever, just doing anything to keep my mind occupied to stop contemplating suicide, trying to coax myself out of my shell. I've been having wicked stomach pains and some days I just wanted to cry but couldn't; as if my body had run dry.

"Now I know you're salt in my wounds..."

With not having a job or being able to find one; despite having tried and gone and done everything I can possibly think of to try and get one. With my family saying shit to me they shouldn't that made me feel unwanted. With friends lying to me and leaving me to feel utterly betrayed with no one to trust and my boyfriend doing stupid shit, I've landed on my last nerve.

"They don't know nothin' about redemption. They don't know nothin' about recovery..."

Sorry for ranting but I really needed to get it out of my system. I feel like I've got no one and I'm utterly alone; it's really hard to move on when you feel betrayed by everyone you know.

-- Lady De Wintre --


Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Currently Listening
The Green Book
By Twiztid
Afraid of Me
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One time I saw a Filipino Cab driver cut out a cancer with a rusty butter knife...

Thought of the day: "I'm so; hidden and you're never gonna see.. I'm cold; forgiven all because of my beliefs.. I'm no; body that you'd ever wanna be.. Cause I know that the world is afraid of me..."

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Listening To: "Mad World" - Gary Jules
Mood: Creative/RPing EPIC!
Watching: Death note AMV's
Writing: Story and drawing fan requests.
Reading: Story.?
Health Status: Sore..exercise and falling in the snow hurts..
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OKAY! So...after some fan-art and taking some requests I have decided to post Chapter 6!! DUN DUN DUN!! xD Are you excited? I am..even though I wrote it...I am weird like that...*dances*

I have a fan-requested pic that's going to be posted soon too of AodxFaye... which, btw, AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN! AHAHAHAHA! But I can't ignore the few fans I have of this lil story so I said Yes, even though it makes me shiver and weird out.

Other than my Death note obsession, nothing much to update on besides my artsyness returning to me and the fact I NEED MONEYS SOON! Dimmu is coming back to Toronto in April and I want to see them so I needs teh moneys! T.T

Oh and fyi, ROB ZOMBEH OWNED! I smuggled in my batteries to snap piccies with my camera..got some good shots that are on my facebook, myspace and DA account so check 'em out!

Anyways.. CHAPTER 6!

Chapter 6: The Guardian's Wounds

 

Markus took a long drink from the worn-out army canteen attached to his belt. He seemed more than parched after walking for more than a few hours and a few miles. His throat jolted downwards as the cold water finally hit him; sending a chill of relief throughout his body. Sweat dripped from his forehead and he was quick to wipe it away in hopes Faye would not recognize the intense fatigue that was now affecting him. His breaths were long and deep; as if he were gasping for air after being trapped under water for several minutes.

"We'll rest here while we wait for those two to catch up" Faye announced; having taken a seat on a nearby fallen tree, she looked deep into the dark fog that was now lingering just ahead of their path. "Don't think I haven't noticed. You've aged and we can't have you worn out for battle, now can we?" She said, looking over at her friend with a grin.

Markus took a seat at the end of the fallen tree, placing his equipment aside and slumping over in an attempt to relax. It was true he'd aged quite a fair bit from the last time he and Faye traveled together. He was only 17 years old when they'd met; a mere boy on the battlefield but he was full of determination and skill. Now, from a rugged young man on the battlefield, he was a worn and wise old Warrior with tales to tell; looking for his one final battle.

"I've grown wise, not old ma' dear" Markus made quick to defend himself. He knew his defense was weak against Faye for she knew far too much about him to belief his covers now.

Faye looked over at him with an inquisitive stare "and I'm supposed to believe that?" she spoke in a low, shallow tone. "You're nearly pushing into your 60th birthday and here you are telling me that you're not old. I see the silver flicks of wisdom in your beard, but as well, I see the scars and bruises of many years in tireless battle. It's worn you old friend."

Markus looked at Faye, a look of submission upon his face, he was defeated and he knew it quite well. "Perhaps that is so, but I can still fight."

"That, I do believe."

A terrifying howl pierced coldly through the silence of the rising morn. Both Faye and Markus were quick to look in the direction from whence it came, seeing nothing more than the thick blanket of fog that had seeped in. Despite his fatigue, Markus grasped his battle axe with strong hands, prepared for any battle that may arise. Faye did not move much more than her eyes, slowly they'd closed in order to determine the exact location of the howl's origins as well, the location of their friends.

"That howl is far enough, for now." Faye spoke with tranquility in her voice.

Within a moment, Faye had flipped over from her seat, just in time to dodge the attack of a dark Orc. His short sword, jagged and worn, hardly fit for killing anyone other than tormenting them to death, sliced the air beneath her. Gracefully she landed behind the Orc, its slumped posture and thin body structure allowing any being to quickly pin point its weak spots. Faye's eyes narrowed, a devious smirk forming over her pale lips as within a flash, she'd unsheathed both her long swords and jammed one of them directly into the spot where the spinal chord attaches to the brain, severing movement completely while the other sword completely cut off the Orc's right leg. A fierce roar echoed from the beast's throat before Markus decapitated it with one foul swoop from his battle axe, tearing the Orc's head clean off.

"There will be more not far off now" Faye announced. She'd formed herself gracefully against the ground, a single knee bent while her opposite leg was outstretched, allowing her to come as close to the ground as possible without eliminating the use of her arms for attack. Both swords were quickly wiped clean of Orc's blood, to avoid attracting other unwanted guests with its scent, and re-sheathed in their holsters. Faye was quick to take a high leap into the trees and another high into the sky, she needed a survey and quickly.

Markus nodded, slinging his battle axe over his shoulders and beginning a run forward into the fog. The blanket of mist was heavy and thick, allowing very limited sight to the point that he could not see his hand in front of his face. Though, with enough battle experience and fighting in the pitch black, Markus' other senses were attuned to him, allowing him enough knowledge of where to go and when to move as to avoid running into anything or anyone.

Faye dropped down the ground; landing silently, crouched to absorb the impact and quickly took into a sprint after her comrade. Closing her eyes, she scanned the area with her mind, the fog useless against her territorial knowledge and illusionary deciphering skills. Her eyes widened and she ran up just behind Markus, he was breathing heavily, his age once more coming into affect. She looked over, noting the anger in his eyes for he knew his old age was keeping him down again. Faye grasped his shoulder, slowing him down to a halt so he may rest for a moment before they carried on.

"You certainly do not want to die here now do you?" She questioned her friend.

"I'm not going to die just yet!" Markus replied, wielding his battle axe with fearless strength.

"Damn" Faye said as she looked around, "it's gotten a lot thicker."

"I can't see a damned thing" replied Markus, his eyes and ears scanning for any sign of danger.

A small Orc, an obvious assassin in rank, slunk into the fog, closing in on Faye. A small axe was clasped in his hands as he let out a powerful shriek just as he readied the killing blow. A dark cloud swirled in around him from above, clearing a small patch of fog in its wake as it seemed to nearly swallow the beast in its darkness and leave him dead on the ground.

"You're late." Faye mocked.

"Humph" was the only reply as the cloud unfurled itself, leaving only crimson eyes to be seen in the darkness. Aod had swooped in silently from above; letting the breeze carry him on his large wings to follow the Orc assassin with his dangerous eyes until he could make a move. Within a moment, Aod had spun himself around, and with little more than a flick of his wrist, cut a large Orc warrior in half.

Faye flicked up two small throwing knives from a leather band on her thigh and tossed one, with great precision, into the Orc's throat, rendering his voice useless to form any shriek or cry that would bring the attention of his comrades. The other was tossed into Aod's shoulder, just above his collarbone. Her arms then folded and she smiled victoriously.

"So then where's the kid?" she questioned.

Aod did not wince for a moment before looking at his wound, letting a bit of blood show before he pulled the weapon out and threw it back to Faye. "He's over there" he replied, pointing to a large tree that seemed to be trembling.

Faye snatched up the knife, just before it nearly struck her in the face and spun it quick to flick off the blood and re-sheathed it with the others at her thigh. Walking over to the tree Faye looked sarcastically with curiousness. "Trees in these parts do neither tremble nor whimper without wind" she spoke into the fog before reaching up into the leaves and grabbing Vaan from his hiding spot.

Vaan fell to the ground with a thud, "hey!" he spoke in his defense before rubbing his head from the impact. Looking around cautiously, as if paranoid, "aren't you scared there are more of those things around!?" Vaan spoke with a panic in his voice.

Faye quickly turned her attention back to Aod who was sitting calmly against the base of the tree; his face expressionless once more and his eyes closed. "Orcs only travel in groups of 3 to attack, so we've got little more to worry about than this fog now." Faye spoke absent-mindedly as she knelt down beside Aod before looking over towards Markus who had taken his own position sitting at the base of a tree not far from the one they sat at. "Are you alright?" she questioned towards Markus.

"Aye I'm fine ma' dear, just take care of that boy." Markus said, closing his eyes and smiling, finally able to rest peacefully after the battle they'd endured.

Faye nodded before looking back at Aod's wound. It wasn't very large, just enough to cause any normal person to halt for a brief moment to allow the attacker time to get close. A few drips of blood seemed to seep from the small hole, but nothing of great severity. As Faye pushed Aod's cloak off his shoulder, giving her a better examination of the wound, Vaan stared curiously as to what exactly she was going to do to him. Slowly she placed two of her fingers on the wound and watched as it began to close as if never being made at all. Vaan's eyes were wide in wonder to her abilities; she was putting in absolutely no effort to the healing process at all. Aod's eyes opened and he looked in Faye's direction just as she finished the healing. Faye's attention was on the wound and she smiled, placing her hands on her knees before looking up at her partner with a confident expression on her face "all done."

Aod smiled in return to her kindness before fixing his cloak and standing up. Vaan was still awe-struck at what he'd just seen with so many questions running through his head.

Faye stood slowly from her position and looked up at the sky. "Unfortunately we've got little time to rest now, our destination needs to be reached by dawn and it seems dawn is almost upon us."

Markus slowly opened his eyes and stood from his seat at a tree's base and once more slung his large axe over his back to be carried as they moved onward.

Vaan still sat, letting out a heavy sigh as he had just gotten into the hopes they'd be able to rest for some time.

"Serpent's Fangs isn't far off now." Markus spoke, his voice still mild with weariness, but better than before. "We'd best get a move on if we're to make it by morn."

With the final words being spoken, the group moved forward again through the thick fog as the sky became brighter and brighter with the rising dawn. They would go toward Serpent's Fangs their destination to determine their next operative mission in the war and in which direction to head.

I SWEAR I'll update more often now, cuz I know you love reading this stuff..xD

-- Lady De Wintre --




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